Tuesday, May 11, 2010

*singsong voice*
I have a crush on a boooy.

This is so complicated, though.
I'm out of practice.
No idea what to do when actual feelings are involved.

I want to show him I'm interested.
But I don't want to come across as needy.
He's perfect for me. Maybe too perfect.
I don't think I'm good enough.
I want to pursue him.
But I'm afraid of being rejected.

I need to stop over-analyzing everything.
I need to be chill when he doesn't text back.
I need to be less self-conscious.

Wait- Me? Less self-conscious?
I just made myself lol.
I would probably cease to exist without that.
Which might be what I'm afraid of...

If I don't notice me, who will?

But, yeah. Boy. Perfect. Brain. Imploding.